its almost time for final exams in 3 weeks time. i SHOULD be studying, i SHOULD be worrying about it and i freaking SHOULD not be distracted. but i dun really do what i SHOULD be doing.
rather, i have been humming songs to myself at night, i have been thinking of what-ifs and what-nots, i have been trying to cut off this emotion and i have been generally wasting time on something that i SHOULD not be.
sadly, my heart always wins my brain when they conflict in handling issues. sigh why cant i go over it like i have previously? maybe its something special? something precious? definitely something i cant let go. but i gotta, like watering a dead plant, its a total waste of time and effort, it wont come back to life.
yet a small part of me always believes in miracles, always hoping the water can bring the plant back to life. sometimes its a good thing, but now it downright sucks. i nvr regret anything much i have done so far, but ur changing things.
when the happiest day and saddest day clash who wins? happiness wins the battle and sadness wins the war. i find comfort that at least your happy with how things are so far. im sorry if im not like the old tim, cause i dont think he'll come back for a long time. he will eventually, but not for a long time.
sheesh, why am i even typing this post? got a presentation tmr morn. i SHOULD be sleeping. BYE
Well not exactly correct since it was over a few days, but yea you get the idea. First and foremost a really big THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO REMEBERED WHETHER LATE VIA MSN SHAKE HAND OR WHAT. At least i crossed ur mind this day hohoho. Gonna photo blog the rest again coz i blew 5 candles in total! Made the same wish for all though...
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Morning had breakfast with SH and JT at MENSA. Had bit of catching up since PICC has since ended which also meant the weekly saturday meetings. And and the end received a very practical and nice present! my very own cap! wooooo now u can see me wear it out. Thank you 2 again! really like it ^.^
I had the last APEL lesson later on in the afternoon. And i got a surprise of my year, they actually got a cake to surprise me with! i totally did not see it coming at all. Look below for our class photo, really blessed to have them do this.
Well the drama never ends coz dear Wei Kiang tried to smash me face into the cake. I dun go down without a fight so below was the eventually result. I had to help do area cleaning! lol
And finally the taupok i could not escape. Lucky my class got so little guys hahaha.
Friday, July 10, 2009
Met early in the morning to hand up project with the groupmates. They've been a really interesting bunch of people to work with as well as have fun with. Headed down to Tampines Central for my birthday lunch combined with cass at Billy Bombers.
Food was standard fare but milkshake good as usual. Group picture!
Had to go back to school for CYA interview of the new batch of people. Aiya nostalgia attack again man, first coz our projects are ending and seeing these people reminded me of our junior batch and myself years ago. Sigh, i think i love life too much, its moving so fast coz im having fun?
Anyway after that CYA interviewers decided to do down to Tampines1 again for a birthday meal + 1 kelvin haha. Ate at this cheese shop there, coz i reallly enjoy milk related products. Had a sumptous meal + great service from the staff there. The manager even threw in a free slice of cheese cake even though its not company policy.
As well as personally wishing me. That really wow service, i recommend u all head down there to experience it yourself.
What better way to end the night then to go see fireworks! I try to support the local art scene as much as i can? Found out today the Night Festival 2009 was going on at dohby gaut. Managed to get kelsen, andrea and cuifen to go haha. At first we found lots of photographers waiting to take pictures of the best part of the show, fireworks display incorporated into an art performance - The Loop of Fortune.
So we decided to join the que, the show didn't start till 1 hour later. It was really hot and stuffy with all the people stand there. But after watching the dazzling display of pyrotechnics i can safely say for the 4 of us, it was totally worth it. Ill let the pictures i took on a CAMERA PHONE do the talking. Really sad i didn't bring my camera man.
Ill start the first pic of where we were waiting with the crowd.
Innovative use of lights to show background
And it changes a few times more
The wheel to the left near the fireworks is the 'loop of fortune'
Fire was damn big cant see anything lol
Fireworks finally begun streaking across the night sky!
Dazzling fireworks, pity the tree
A sea of sparkles!
And the finale where the national museum burst into fireworks too
The whole exprience lasted half an hour, but it went by really quickly. Really blessed to be able to end my birthday on such a high note with flame and loud bangs haha. Tired we all went home satisfied, but more was in stall for me.
When the happiest day and the saddest day of the year collides, who wins?
(To be cont)
I guess many people in the world are quite sad now over a loss of a talent. Eccentric no doubt, but talented.
Michael Joseph Jackson
August 29, 1958 – June 25, 2009
Though he was not really from my era, i did listen to his song and watch his MVs abit.
And once again it got me thinking on the perception of time and how fast it is passing. Sighs.
From SIP confirmation to NATM2 with erskine and fun group meetings.
Things seems to be cheering up a little.
Then came the epic movie Ghosts of GFs past with ben, which really struck me.
Maybe seeing things that i want to, or over thinking on my part. As the end draws near, guess it will be inevitable. The peices are in position, the problem is how to move it.
And i realized a fatal flaw of balance. Hmm...
To my taggers, i guess i dun really reply tags. Which defeats the purpose of it being there. Sorry k, drop me a nudge on msn if needed.
For every beginning there must be an end, i think its time.
Though i rather it last longer, or has it alrdy gone on too long?
I thought my life was perfect, till I met you.
And it all started crumbling down around me.
Everytime im with you life seems more perfect than then.
It never lasts long enough, maybe never will.
If I could heck care, you wouldn't be a constant in my head.
Random post, don't read too much into it.
The furthest distance in the world is not between life and death.
Ok i think its been quite awhile since i been back from China. Schools started and projects are coming. Anyway China rocked as expected. Although the drama never ends quoting a fellow classmate, was quite an eye opening experience. Both for handing PR issues and 'indepedent' living wise.
For those that dunno, i went to Shi Jia Zhuang, capital city of Hebei for 21 days to be an english teacher. With a bunch of 26 other people who came in all sorts and sizes we headed over to see what will happen. The following 21 days were filled with love, life, drama, drinks, food, fun and whole lot of stuff. I wont forget it for quite abit of my life. Anyway i do LOVE the place a whole lot, and do wanna visit again. Takers to visit China do call me!
And Semester 3.1 is starting. Suddenly im a senior. Its like CJC devaju, time passing so fast and seeing juniors did what u once did. Sigh, i love/hate time all the same.
Today's quote: Life is short, art long, opportunity fleeting, experience treacherous, judgment difficult.