The Fallen

its almost time for final exams in 3 weeks time. i SHOULD be studying, i SHOULD be worrying about it and i freaking SHOULD not be distracted. but i dun really do what i SHOULD be doing.

rather, i have been humming songs to myself at night, i have been thinking of what-ifs and what-nots, i have been trying to cut off this emotion and i have been generally wasting time on something that i SHOULD not be.

sadly, my heart always wins my brain when they conflict in handling issues. sigh why cant i go over it like i have previously? maybe its something special? something precious? definitely something i cant let go. but i gotta, like watering a dead plant, its a total waste of time and effort, it wont come back to life.

yet a small part of me always believes in miracles, always hoping the water can bring the plant back to life. sometimes its a good thing, but now it downright sucks. i nvr regret anything much i have done so far, but ur changing things.

when the happiest day and saddest day clash who wins? happiness wins the battle and sadness wins the war. i find comfort that at least your happy with how things are so far. im sorry if im not like the old tim, cause i dont think he'll come back for a long time. he will eventually, but not for a long time.

sheesh, why am i even typing this post? got a presentation tmr morn. i SHOULD be sleeping. BYE

tim - bored at 1:27 AM